Sunday, February 22, 2009
It has jush struck me.came in agn at 915. Since dhen I hav been sittin in an lousy chair lyke a fool. I cud do ntg. I hear noting but yr voice. Im lyke a fool hearin u call me'Dear.' I offended two men today by leaving them coolly. I wanted to hear your voice, not theirs. When I am with you I leave aside my contemptuous, suspicious nature. I wish I felt yr head on my shoulder. After the two delightful evenings spent yesterday& the day b4, I shall certainly not go out tonyte, but will sit here at home and write to you.as for the past days i ddnt contact you. should know who you are... If you love me, yknw wat must have been my joy. Wat I knw you may have felt, I will not describe.No, if my suffering could be cured by such means it would not be serious. And already I foresee that I shan't b able to endure evn the Sunday msg. And so, to compensate for Saturday's lost opportunity of fun.I tynk I will go to bed soon.. I have been a half-hour writing this thing. Will u write something to me?& ohh, being single for tyme being is not a gd sign indeed. havin a hard tyme with none control. ohh wait. CONTROL ? i hate tt werd. what i meant ish...hm, idk how to explain. for whom who knows, great dhenn...crush ? admire ? haaa, looking for one now. kay shhsss ! just dart. ntg much. bukannnyer dora naq in relationship kans. no no. yak dush !! saje2 jek naq ader ttm (: heee.. KAY DIAM, extra sgt2. live my life to the fullest. hard tyme luh skg !!!DEAR WAWA BESTIES ...
There is only platonic love btween us, as we gaze at each other, steady &clear, our needs frever unmet. i karn hav u now or nvr. i karn. you yourslef karn accpet. mie too. i want it all back. but seems WE KARN BE FRIENDS EVER AGAIN. haish ):
those wide eyes tt look at me always, letting go. Go ahead and fynd a new fren for better. as you knew im A NO GD FOR YOU.My ummy was very sympathetic. She was the one who really gave me the courage. to still have you in the heart but not in real life. nomatter wad. youre still in my heart. youre truely my best friend which i could HARDLY FORGET !!Every day my heart goes out into the world searching for you I mean the real you & not the descriptions I hav of you in my head.