Tuesday, March 31, 2009

It is a-SO00000 curious thought, but it is only when i see ppl looking ridiculous that till i realize just how much i love them !If this is a crush, then I dont knw if I cud take the real thang if it happens. oh hell shiat ! . NAH UH. itx a no-GO ! uhh pfft ! YKNOW WHAT, Saving or saying about love doesnt bring any interest in mie. i dunch know whye. laen luh if that person really sacrifise everythang i wish for. but nowadys. hard to fynd one...I think its nice when people fynd love, bcause I feel lyke everyone dserves it. exactly! but but. love to mie aint ntg special at all. cruel huh ! . shiat !Boyfriends come and go, but friends are forever to mie. i dunt mynd what ppl guink to say. im this . im that. go on. i wunt stop yarh (: . youre just making a big sin in yrself . aint mie. im tryna being friendly and frank. thats all (: sincere is what i need & so do trust !
Run your fingers through my soul. For once, just once! feel exactly what I feel, believe what I believe, perceive as I perceive, look, experience, examine, and for once !just once, understand me before you talk something i dunt really like to hear about.Never rush in love for it never runs out. Let love be the one to knock at your door, so by the time you start to fall, you know that your feeling is for sure.Love has its ups and downs, its twists and turns. Love leaves you pain, teaches you until you learn and even if love takes so long, it always takes you to where you belong.im still young for goodness sake ! im enjoying every movement & moment in my life. none can stop unless someone really appreciates mie for gd & last forever together (:
(FINGER CROSS)



Sunday, March 29, 2009

It takes a min to have a crush on someone,an hour to lyke someone, and a day to love someone...but it takes a lyfe tyme to frget someone.Once in awhile,Right in the middle of an ordinary lyfe,Love gives us a fairy tale. betol taqq ? haha .... but to mie. everythang aint true. you may fynd it soooo stupit. but, too bad, i dunt have the sign of it no more. okie psst, just for now ajur. so yeah..haaa. been busy all this while. no tyme for it yet. live life. im still young. enjoy and independent is what im having now. tu jek, stress strike cause of someone someone getting into my lyfe with crush and admiring. please. i dunt need those. im sorry if i were to hurt you ppl. but itx a fact. you must understand. aint easy yknow ! uhhh pffft ! He taught me how to love,but not how to stop. Love makes lyfe so confusing, but without lovewud you really want to live? with stress, and all. i woudnt want too....itx hurtful. you may fynd me walking with guys . but look. dunt tynk wrong. please dunt. im here to make frens. im friendly to be frank. so yea. taq salah kan naq buat kwn thn go out with thm. hmmm, pelik jugak ehh, whye ppl want to kpo2 about my lyfe. hmm, as if you nvr done it before. LYKE DURH ! The best dreams happen when you're awake.With you my love, I want to start a dream that never ends when the tyme is set right ......... patience is all i need now. aint a need to rush.........

yesterday....enjoyed ! haa. i reached home 6 am inda morning just now. haha... gerek yknow.
went to esplanade see the lights off. haaa ! watch gig. at 11 finished. split up with otang and pupu they went home early. met afiq watched unborn movie over at plaza sing. wanted to watch at 1150. but ticks selling fast. instead tt. we chose at 230am slot. bought tics. ntg to do . we went to explore over at fort canning. scary yknow. haha. thn bored. sat down play psp. need for speed. we challenge. kecoh aper kiter ! haha. kayy shss. rushed off to PS. show started at 3 shey. pey luh lamer. frm 230 to 3. haha. 3omins of commercials. so yeah. end at 430. alek. took NR. thn went to pioneermall mac dee. ate breakfast till 630am. heeee ! thn tady. woke up preety late ! i woke up at 43opm. dhen mandy kuar agy py watched my ex crews b-boy over at jrg point till 815. went to pioneer mall. lepak till 9. now im home ! haaa. guink out again later. so yea. haaaa !.
gtg. toodles !
Saturday, March 28, 2009

damn shit. idk warts wrong with my background. if you notice it CLEARLY !haa. ohh wartever. i lazy to mkae it nice back again. so yea. & errr, sorry da lamer taq update blog. been busy. moreover starting first week of school was okie. following day kena suspended ): damn ! shit tawuk ! taqper uh. best jugak oi. slack at home. kena detention, walk around school. haaa !yesterday had pit at around 630. my marks ! haa. pass pass. i still rmbr my marks ! eng, 87 malay, 66 science, 100 Business, 72 CPA, VR haha !okie okie. cool kans. and wooops! my maths. i fail dart !. yknow how much ? haaa. 45 lioa. bad oii. i slack this CA1 test. shit ! i need to buck up. continue later at night. gtg . out with friends . toodles ! (:
Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Begining are scary. Endings are usually sad, but itx the middle that counts the most. The teenage lyfe im having now ish the greatest deed ever ! Happiness is the best face lift. !haa. okey wait, wat am i talking about anyways ? damn. brain damage i guess !

The future depends on wat we do in the present. I Fynd sumthang i love to do and ill never have to work a day in your life. that is whye, i force and create a new living by deleting one by one of my NoN-Special-Friend contacts in phone. for what i kept everythang inside and they poured every bad werds towards mie. i dunt need all those. you may fynd a gerl tt you can trusted on. but not mie ! dunt ever try to hurt my feelings again. i dunt wish to get hurt no more. i sacrifice myself to forgive every mistake. to tell you the truth, i tried my best to love and care for you, but seems i karn, im lyke changing and have no feeling of the word "love" no more. wad had happen to mie actaully ? and yarh.. i dunt care about the shame. i dunt care about wart ppl wanna say. all i i want to so ish, repaid evrything. my sins, my bad repuatation i had or wartsoever you guys had said lately. i dunt give a damn of wart you wanna say !Misery is almost always the result of thinking.The weak can never forgive. Forgiveness is the attribute of the strong.There are three words I lyke to repeat to myself... glass half full. Just to remynd myself to b grateful for evrything I hav. All i know now is to think of the beauty that still left around me and be happy always (:

& yeah, tmr . will be having my dance practice 1pm till 5pm dhen meet up with fieza o somewhere 1st. dhen plan to meet otang and frens over at esplanade stage there. ahaa, there will the sallys performing. ohhh wee. ! for sure im guink to slack over at riverside. the usual place to be alone and release all stress ! . i hope otang can teman mie awhile (:
Friday, March 13, 2009

awww, at last ! i make the first move ! we forgive and forget everthing ! ohh bummer ! was stressing out after seeing a doctor. and was in the bus, in head planning to booked pizza hut over at town area. so yeah, i did. i asked my fren for help. everthing was set. in the end, i text her up, she karn make it. damn ! nah itx okie, my fault too, taq text her awal2 luh kans. but evrythang was fyynd now. ohh, great. i was crying with joy in the bus while heading back home. haaa !
and tt pizza hut treat ish also for my toyol . haha. ehh sowie, my kwn jugak. but thn, wawa karn make it, i cancel everything. haiyaa. was abit sad too actually that she karn make it , and moreover, tkt my toyol nyy penat balek NS luh kans. hmm, nvm, itx okie.
will make it another day dhen aye (:



Im starting to miss this friend of mynd alot^^ haha. he just enter NS lyke wth ! uh pfft !
His my friend ... A true friend sticks with me through thick and thin no matter what. (: the one and whom i can trust on . we're just friend. nutynk much . haaa! (: dunt get us wrong aye.
A Friend lyke him is someone who knows all about me and loves me in anyway . betol taq my toyol ? haha ! thats what his mummy called him before entering NS . padan muker kau ! huahua.
and yarh, before entering, we went out to jurong point and grab ice cream that his been craving for. so yeah, we did bought it and was half eaten and the left ones ate by mie. uhh pffft ! later gemok lagy siah. haha ! ehh, taste good tau, at first taq sedap, afterawhile. umm yum yum ! (:
& yeah, meeting him up soon today . i guess . idk luh. cause im sick mahx. so yeah...
will see how kay.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009

Im starting ti miss you more and more.itx not tt I am mad at you because of not texting mie up or wart., itx just that wen I talk to u I realize how much I love you and wen I realize hw much I love you, I realize I karn have you n that makes me love you even more. but i no longer have this love feelings in mie. and itx weird . i may be liking and loving that person so much. but sadly, i karn show the real sign of my love towards thm. selfish aint i ? or am i just too secretive. oh yesh, i do. Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional.i may be choosing the negative thoughts sight perhaps. of just to move on for better lyfe . you see, itx aint easy to fall in love wen im nort ready yet. so no point of mie guink crazy or even show off to thm. i aint tt type of ger showing off . ppl may tynk, itx gd to let it out. but to mie. nah.....no use anyway...Everyone tells me I should forget about you, you don't deserve me. they are ryte, you dont dserve me, but... tell you what... I deserve you.Movin on is simple, itx wat u leave bhynd that makes it so difficult.I just realized, itx so lonely bein free and bored without someone . Sumdy nvr really comes, does it? how ? hmmm....
(wondering)

and daddy was happy . i went home real fast once ends school. im not feeling quite well at the moment, slept during maths lesson, i karn take it the pain in my head. damn ! and yesh. at last daddy surprised mie with love chocolate cupcakes wich im craving for it since last 3 weeks ! and he bought mie new blue short dress . how shuweet. and tell you what, itx been long tyme ddnt met up with daddy, both were at home. just that JARANG nmpk. coz the whole weeks,days went home late and off to school early without salam my daddy. haish. im sorry if im too busy with stuff till i ddnt get to meet you up and had dinner over at fig and olive yesterday nyte ):

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

When I look into his eyes, it seems all the problems in the world go away and Im floating in mid-air. aww, itx lyke the first and last seeing him go, aint wart i need ): . ohh damn. we're just friends for goodness sake. yet still missing him soo soo much )): no no, im scared to be in love again ): Being in love is what makes working all weak and stress out.I may not get to see u as often as I like. I may not get to hold you in my arms all through . But deep in my heart I truly know, ure the one that I love, and I karn let you go as a friend.Itx not just a physical attraction dart i like. itx cause of his loving and care act towards mie makes mie go lyke *awww* (: . kay shss. Love means making the other happy, even from a distance and i knwo that for sure. as for friends that i love most .and to that someone,Your presence in my lyfe brings wonderful smiles and lovin thoughts within my heart and i wud nvr trade u wich is special to mie to anyone esle ! but ohh yarh, eventually evrythang goes wrong... Dun say sorry, nd then do the same thang u were sorry for two days later... Cuz tht just means u werent sorry...I wont ever understand hw u got ovr all tis so quickly.I used to tynk I actually meant sumthang to you.Im sick of switchin btween pretendin 2 b happy&showin' the painful truth of hw I feel. I try to be happy, But the pain shows through. I hate bringin down evrone else arnd. Besides, Im sick of ppl askhang "Whats wrong?" and i thought of knowing new friends are much more great thn everything just to release stress for a moment....
Sunday, March 8, 2009

Friday, had my cross country . met up with frens over at mac, 7am. thn off frm mac at arnd 725am. we're suppose to reach discovery centre by 730am . so yeah, we're late. and still took our own sweet tyme . haaa! went there by taxi (: so aint gt problem with tt (: . we had our 3 km run. tiring tawuk ! at last pheew ! completed my run for about 20mis exactly ! proud of it. yeah ! if kat school run 24 rounds(3km)inside carpark fr lyke 25 mins gytu. wahhh !.after the event. had our journey tour . ehh ehh, cool tawuk we're inside this safti studio . helicopter,tanks we're all over us. and we sat in the middle watch muvee. it was lyke a real one! those war, shooting and stuff. we can feel the effects and vibration ! woohoo! i karn imagine how real it could be if theres a war again. .. uh shsss !




Monday, March 2, 2009

been hanging out with mummy fr the past two days. seriusly it was fun.released all the stress, but to bad, at nyte striked back. oh hell no. ! back to the topik -__- .. urm, mummy ? weird pictures ?crazy tymes ? sister at heart ? partners in crime ? love lyfe siblings ? are all in her (mummy) shes my everything. the one i love most . (:

saturday, ..out with family to chalet (: ahaa, jady dj skejab. woo ! penat tawuk. taqper. still gt tips. yeah ! 25 bucks. for 3 hours. okie luh tu. haaa ! reached home at around 1 plus. tiring tawuk. dhen at around 3 , daddy ajak py mkn kan pasir panjang. ape lagy. trun luh. boboy, mie, mummy and daddy (: heee. very cold. half way of our journey, hujan lebat ! yak dush ! reached home xactly at 5am...

sunday...shopping spree. woke up preety late dart day.washy2.giddy giddy ready and off to suntec at around 3 plus. haa. tiba jek, i saw this mini laptop. pink and purple in colour. (acer)i was lyke ! ayahhh...manje naq laptop. plish plish. haha!! dhen was about to buy tau, skali mummy pulak kacau. she said wait for abg skali, beli samer with abg, maner tawu he needs laptop for poly. so i said. okie luh. haaa ! dhen jalan2 py topshop. grab sum lingerie and accessories. ahaa! total spent $80plus. dhen down to cotton on . boought 2 tops that cost 2o bucks. and mummy bought for mie camera. a red one ( i choose!)$676 with free cover.(!) woohooo.! but we used it for family purpose. so yea. taqleh bwk jln with kwn. nnty rosak ! taqper2...still gt my canon. haha ! dhen, we bought a tent ! 8 men fit tent. it was huge ! wow ! real huge. haaaa ! and that cost $99.90. dhen, jalan2 nmpk foolscap mickey , pooh and dora .haaaa. one for 1 buck. aper lagy bely luh. haha cute kan. woohoo!dhen, kiter lapar gyler babi. round2 carik thai restaurant. haha. ader tu ader. thn skaly, im craving for spaghetti. was about to go pastamania. dhen taq jady. haaa. end up turun jrg point , called abg and boboy come over eat together. wahh. belum mam dary bngn pagi till 8 plus. and yarh, b4 makan kan, while waitin for queue(reserve) we jalan2 thn nmpk massage thingey and cost at $50 one family package. haha. kiter pun py buat massag. oooo! very tensed siah my back. tts wart the apek said. haaa ! kay shhss. after all done. burp here and there. haha. trus kiter py makan kat pizza hut (: till 10 plus. haaaa !lamer kan kiter mam. pai kedai sumer da close.

sorie ehh kalau taq in PAST TENSE KE APER . IM TOO LAZY TO MAKE IT PROPER. NNTY TAQ PSL2 PASSERBY MENYEBOK DTG CKP " BUCK UP YR ENGLISH PLISH" OHH PIKIR INI CIKGU MARK KAPE ! sowie ehh kalau krg krg terase. ITX MY BLOG. SO WHO CARES =p

A random talks.....

When I heard the "Uh Oh",How was I to know!That you wud turn out to be my special friend,Someone who could be ther,Until the end. i hope so...No matter how I feel or what I do,I know, in my heart,That I can count on you and even to my friends.

yknow whye im sacred to fall in love.....once met, Sum wit regret.Some with hope,Some with pain.But still, the answer is plain.ppl nowadays are diff. they may loose hope on us. and cheat. A heart may be broken,Or made to mend.Jush tynk wat lyf wud be with none cares. There is the cruelty of life, the pain, the evil, nt to talk of crap shits ! that is whye i choose to be single for now...

ohh wait, being single pun bnyk stress. haaiyaa. kalau att pun samer jugak . WTH !

i hope someone could came into my life and change mie for better....

and uhh, damn shit. i can go pokai this month. starting on the 4th till 16 all my peeps bday. haa.on 9,13 and 15 jek taqder. wth ! damn it. ny luh kalau terlalu bnyk sgt kwn. ahah ! taqper2. bought them a small gift anyway too just now (:

Sunday, March 1, 2009

to my bestfriend and to my special friend....
i was unhappy lately. itx lyke a NO-GO for mie. i force myself to go out with parents just to push away my stress , my everything negative thoughts. i was too stress. yesh. ddnt told you guys this. but yea, keeping myself safe and secure. so ppl wunt ask how am i duink or so.

And you consoled me by saying you’d write. but nah.. ntg appear.What is wrong, why treat me so?Have you got new friends with whom to get along?
Wher r u nw, wen I need you the most?Oh dear besties., after the losses I have incurred?Has it ever struck you tht I still exist?Tell me, has it even once occurred?
did you make a promise – A promise that you knew you wouldn’t keep..Givin me high hopes of eternal amity.And then deserting me, isolated, to weep? and this goes to my special fren too. promise is a promise. i wunt break it. trust mie....
about surprises from mie to you...i hope your heart wunt stop in shock.with surprise i look at you and wanting to give you something...
I now know,Wat my eyes cud not see,You are the only one that is for me,Many nytes those tears flew,Being myself without anyone.Anyone to care about the thoughts,Looking at the sky and knowing,Many mistakes [...](!)