Sunday, March 1, 2009
to my bestfriend and to my special friend....i was unhappy lately. itx lyke a NO-GO for mie. i force myself to go out with parents just to push away my stress , my everything negative thoughts. i was too stress. yesh. ddnt told you guys this. but yea, keeping myself safe and secure. so ppl wunt ask how am i duink or so.
And you consoled me by saying you’d write. but nah.. ntg appear.What is wrong, why treat me so?Have you got new friends with whom to get along?Wher r u nw, wen I need you the most?Oh dear besties., after the losses I have incurred?Has it ever struck you tht I still exist?Tell me, has it even once occurred?did you make a promise – A promise that you knew you wouldn’t keep..Givin me high hopes of eternal amity.And then deserting me, isolated, to weep? and this goes to my special fren too. promise is a promise. i wunt break it. trust mie....about surprises from mie to you...i hope your heart wunt stop in shock.with surprise i look at you and wanting to give you something...I now know,Wat my eyes cud not see,You are the only one that is for me,Many nytes those tears flew,Being myself without anyone.Anyone to care about the thoughts,Looking at the sky and knowing,Many mistakes [...](!)just abt to tell you this. i may not be the evrything you wanting for or wartso ever. i karn feel the love for now. i lost hopes, care and life ....i may not be the lady whom you known lately, that we used to be together... nah uhs.. aintchanging.
i am who i am now...i just need to build up again and start anew with a new love......but who....a new love could be
"used to be" or "new upcoming love" ?