Thursday, May 28, 2009

Woke up early in the morning lyke again ! was awake by my mummy ! haiyaaa whye you have to wake me up early in the morning . haaa !
Tralalala .... I shall gather myself into my self again, I shall take my scattered selves and make them one. just a lil bit more to go. oh yesh and i can do it. no heartbroken allowed. dammit ! i need happiness in my lyfe. not sad. geees ! as i told you. theres no longer a word called love in my dictionary YET !. so please. dunt you ever force me. im not regretting everything youve said. i know what im doing and the things ive done are precious and i dunt waste any time with it .im just here Watching the future come and the present go. yes. im different from other gerls whom you knew. It is almost as hard for friends to meet . idk whye.Can't you see .. how I miss you? Every day my heart goes out into the world searching for you I mean the real you & not the descriptions I have of you in my head.I sense the light of love in ur eyes & disappear into anythin you happen to be lookin at.Hell is where we come apart so do fighting. as you knew, i dunt need all those. im just here being your normal friend and not more than that. I just keep you in mind I may only be as clear as you make me but no matter how hard you look I cant be a mirror if you don't see yourself.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

ohh well, this would the the last day of school . thn hollies. ohh yea !
Sunday, May 24, 2009




Friday. It was a last minute outing. okeh. i did text up my girlfriend. but yea, some of them couldnt make it. so i slept and was awake by my cell phone vibration ! grr. so, xiu ling text me up and said tuition was canceled, so we decided to went for shopping over at town, i met her over at orchard, 645. & i was fucking fed up with the train ! pfft ! * tooot tooot, the train move,stop,move,stop.tooot tooot * BIG TOOT TO TT TRAIN UH . it took me standing still fr lyke 1hr frm pioneer to raffles ! shiat
back to the topic. went shopping. & both of us was searching fr fringed high heels shoe. as xiuling said, wanna change to american style. si i fyynd it cool .so we went all over the place searching fr one. atlast ! we found black shiny high heels covered shoe. nice one ! next stop. at around 9, went outside met alfred. frm there we're off to cineileisure. ate over t LJS. thn bumped to farihin ! argh ! i miss tt guy *so the muker tembok* he sat infront of me and ate my dish . hee. his my work upline fren from MDIS, Venture Era (: ooo. after all, we sat over at cathay till 11+..what a day (:



Thursday, May 21, 2009

Haha. That new clan of myne really irritates me much . yknow whye, they starting to call me *Your my one and only Dickhead lady in our clan,Hello Dick Head* hahaha thats whart they always mention wen we meet up and shake hands .
haha. shut up ! *buttocks clenched* fist tight. hahaha okeh shss. so not me talking all this shiat thangs.
ohh well, ddnt attend school just now. felt giddy and i woke up late. so decided not to thn. at home watch tv. conference with this 2 guy 1 girl *so the taq perlu* they were in school . haaa! aiyaaa. seriusly im bored today. as you knew every thurs my ezlink card with mummy . just to top up . haa. so i cannt go out luh. nvm. i still have cash. haaa! still can take train yea. but idk wher to head down too. grrr ! okeh so not. now im waiting for fren . haaa ! gd fren indeed. waiting fr her to come over my hse fr some SPA RELAXATION TIME lyke again !! so yea. *lulur,Waxing* woo. just cant wait fr tt. alright. she will be arriving in 10mins tyme . must get all the stuff ready. will update more soon later yea. Bye (:
Wednesday, May 20, 2009

LaST minute chilling with friends over at cathay thn down to Fort canning park * last night * 9.30pm till 4.30am
(DARE TO THIS BUNCH OF HOT GUY(WHITE GUY) HAHA)
Looks ntg on him.See it's nothin'~ damn .If he aint abt somethin'. (Uh-huh) Then I gotta next him,On to the next one. (Next)And he's bad, (Bad) Totally . gosh , insane. touching aint a party of the routine yea !! So i might just say HOLLA yea mate !Thats heavy in the game. i aint gonna play with it jyeah. Fuck no ! haaa ! playing trick yea ? IM ON ! so warts next. play another game. okeh, will see how tough it could be. and end up. BIG MOUTH YOU HAD i won. a loser lyke you aint what i need fr games ! haa. loser freak. that bundle bucks of money. oh hell yea. im into it. so warts next. True and dare ! cool shiat. sat by the fort canning corner area. freaky ! game started . play on. im the first. sat by d graveyard fr 15 mins half naked ( ohh so nt me ) i wunt . i just sat by there. next, amri. total naked . sat by the graveyard 15 mins, next ( hell shiat ) ( me again ) roll down over the big yard(somewhere in the middle lyke a slop & shout*FUCK YOU*) NEXT FADLY. great one all naked . sat in the bush till someone pass by and it took 20 mins fr one of this couple walked pass. haa. he BOOED* both of thm . haa. ran away ! shiat ! haha. and so on with the gamee !!.. haha. long game indeed.
reached home 3am in the morning. took cab. poof ! and off to mac to have our breakfast there. nyahah!
and today , woke up pretty late ! haa. 2pm . nt tt late luh. haha !

*AMRI,FADLEY,WANI,ZACH,DORA & FIR*
Tuesday, May 19, 2009

Nothing much to do at home, so i decided to search fr party stuffs through internet such as those rodeo bull machine, Foam Party Machine, Popcorn Machines and manyyy more luhhh ! haha. im so confuse with all this, im lyke wanting everything on my mummy list ! gosh. okeh so the expensive. makes me think twice about choosing the right one fr my birthday party !wooo. i just cant wait. will update you ppl aye (:
& ohh, just now, had fun with wawa. we went down to haji lane . ohh so the last minute. we went to masqurade shops and so do party shop. awesome thang ahaa. ex ex expensive! wooo! macam maner nyy ?. wahdu ! okeh nvm, had camwhore. random + candid + so the taq perlu siah ! haha

Bla Bla Bla . back to my topic .
Thank you for the admiration and respect you gave me all this while you guys. this dedicated to adiq, iqbal, Apiz, Zainie, Amri & Fadley. all i can say is Thank you ! you guys are the best. ahaa, never let me down and stuff. cool shiat. ohh yesh. my exams already over. we can meet up lyke again . and have fun that we used to have lyke before. ohkay, will update about plans, outing and so do the showcase thang. ahaa, big showcase. well, all the best. im just here tryna help you ppl.
& ohh last,Thank you for choosing me as friend, sister & stranger . hahas...
stranger to friend to best friend to sister (: haha !
Monday, May 18, 2009

Had so much fun over the weekends ! superb !
alright. aint gonna talked much here. friday. went down with celine (: ahaa ( psst, i met a new philipino friend)
hurhur. okeh met her up and thought of getting neck piercing. my budget 80 bucks. but tt shop only at 75 bucks. well, i have to survey fr cheaper one instead. if taqder, thn have to go ther again. gosh ! alright. thn we proceed to cineileisure thn down to ctahay chill till the last train fr both days. fri & sat. cool thang huh. ahaa, last min to spore flyers and so. really ! enjoying siah. sunday morning, woke up at 4am. off from hse at 530am. went to desaru(msia) wooo ! yknow whart. i cant stand the heat ! really toooooo HOT ! gosh. and ohh, tell you wart. im wearing those tubes tops. and put on suntanning lotion. instead of getting my skin tan, i gt blacker. gosh ! ahaa. sway siol ! grrrr~!
thn we're off to jusco,danga bay, kipmart,fruit farms,angsana (: ahaa. tiring day indeed. went shopping and stuff. coolness !


Friday, May 15, 2009

Yesterday. Tiring Day indeed. Sent my boboy(adeq) to clinic. he ade high fever ! pfft. troublesome ! pfft, before entering we must fill in the form . bla bla.. check temperature . thn wear mask -_- haha. SOTONG SIAH ! wooo
reached home. Iqbal Text dora up for a movie. i cant at first, i need to take care of my boboy. after tt, mummy called and said shes otw home from work which was at 4pm. so i told mummy that i wanna go out. ahaa, she gave me and i text iqbal up again. & yeah. we watched X-men ! haha. Cool luh. Serius shit. haha. Thanx Iqbal fr the treat. haha. been wanting to watch tt show.at last Dapt jugak. actually he wanna watched angels and demons. but i scared those kynd of bloody bloody thingey so yea. haha ! Thanx once again. & ohh, when i was on my way to Dhouby GHaut Mrt, saw jupenoid ! hurhur. i miss him men!. woo. ddnt know iqbal and him used to be friend haha. what a small world (:
& sooo.. reached home at 1215 am (: sleep tight dora. (:

• - 7 June ( st james )
• - 8 June ( my birthday )
• - 13 June ( BIG BIRTHDAY PARTY )

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

okeh, idk what to update about. since this 3 yound lady here text me up and asked me to update blog. gosh gosh ! and Fadley, dunt be so kay po ... i know what im duink. saya tahu, awak jealous bila saya berbual-bual sama si Amri ? haha. chill baby luh Fdaley. kiter kan kawan. aduhai !
pening pening ! yknow what There is only platonic love between us, as i gaze at each other, steady and clear mayne. we are only meant to be friends. not more. as i told you before luh fadley. thers no tyme for me in this kynda shit thingey. i just wanna have fun and freedom. even now, you and amri always control me. pfft ! wharts all this. haiya. see luh . my fren my fren !
grr. okeh nvm. whartever it is. i still listen to you, you just too great to be my friend.

ohh urm, i had my science paper 2 and maths paper 1 just now. god dammit !
SUSAH KE APER ! aduhai. tu luh. go tuition. masok telinga kanan keluar telinga kiri. pffft !
susah banget ! ): shity shit.!
alright nvm. for maths i still have my paper 1. my hope. at least pass tt will do (: haha !


Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Mothers day was the awesome day ever. i was forced to wake up early in the morning just to prepare picnic stuff. -__- at 11am, we took our stuff down to car. mummy called ibu to come over here and went off together so yea, ibu and family arrived just in time. so first stop we went to marina barrage. (was not on the list) since my ibu wanna go there, so we bring her over. had fun. played with the water and stuff. cool thang. at 3pm, we drove off to East coast park. half of us played bowling. okie so called the abang2 and kakak2 play bowling. haa. the rest of my adeq sedare went out for swimming over at the beach. we were lyke very *kecoh* in the bowling alley. haaaa ! gosh ! & yknow what, (embarrassing) i fell down on my first throw . haha. terlebih step, slipped down, & OUCH ! haaaa. paisey yknow. dammit !kay drop the topik. so, after that, at 6pm we went off to simpang bedeok to have our BIG dinner there. we ordered expensive dishes. haaaa ! and total of the payment was $200++ haaa. 4 families on the go mahx. haaa. they shared money among each other. so yea, aint a big deal though. haaa




Saturday, May 9, 2009

Friday. met up with leon, ricardo, ghouri and friends over at Kallang, Leisure park. New mall (: and so lyke WOW ! haaa, we went there for ice skating (:
after that, we went off to town, slack over at ceneileisure. while waiting For xiuling Aida to arrive. we went window shopping awhile. so she came and sat with us outside 7 11. we totally slack there indeed. haa. what a place. but everythang was great. ahaa, fun part was, i couldnt get my money withdraw, as min was 50 bucks which i only wanted to withdraw 30 . haaa. dammit. so yea, ran over to heerens still cant. and ran off to taka (: at last ! haaa
so yea, xiuling and geng went back home at 11 while me zainie and akim sat over at taka. haa, at 12 we're off, both of them took taxi while me met up with khairul (: my lovely ren. haa, he sent me off (: vroom !


Saturday. celebrated advanced mothers day. we went off to ceneileisure lyke AGAIN ! haa, to watch *jangan tegor* haaa. sweet one ! i sat in the centre. and mum sat on the left and wawa sat on my right. dammit ! both of them shout and made me panic, and so the popcorn pop up ! haaa flew in the air.GREAT ONE YOU GUYS. haa. had fun with my family. even i dunt talked to my dad tt much, i had fun with wawa and mum (: love you guys.
after that we went off to paragon and watched gig there. ahaa. sweet acoustic one ! ahaa, loving it. so yea. walked around till 1115pm and decided to go back home early as today(soon) will be guink to East coast park, with ibu and family, mummy and family, Afiq and family ! ahaa, cool one. hope not raining uhhs ! haha... winks*
Friday, May 8, 2009

Today was my 3rd day at home, wasnt in school.
chop chop. drop the topik. just now met mamat behind school to pass over my business projects. all done ! superb !.
well, i had fun yesterday. I texted up wawa and plan to go to Town. so yea, we did. out from hse at 330. 1st stop to plza sing, off to cathay, sat that and have our chit chat session. ahaa, went off from cathay at 6. so we walked down to cineileisure. haaa ! cool thang. haaa, after walking about, we went off to nearby skate park for our so called dinner. we ta poa food. haa. thn back to cineileisure to grab some drinks. after all of to take mrt over at orchard. i splited up with wawa over at jrg east. met my friends over at cck. ahaa, after that, we went off to west coast park and grab our latte ! ohh sweet ! we went exploring near jetty. ahaa, scary luh ! dammit. haaa, after exploring we went to mac again to wash our legs and off from West coast park at 1230am. vroom vroom reached home at 1.30am. (:
and later on cant wait to go for ice skating. ahaa, hope it would be fun !
gosh (:
Thursday, May 7, 2009

I had to wake up early in the morning to help my mum out with somethig. adoi ! she disturb my sleeping beauty. oh shut up ! haaa, and so decided to text someone to know the real thang happening. so yea, hurt,fright,sad,pissed are all in us. nvm, i just wanna put that aside. i have to be strong and guess what, im like not ready to sit in this freaking shit big examination yet. dammit !really, no hope siah. and all problems occured in thw wrong year ! ohh nvm, i still have my tuition to depend on. nvm, will strive for the best in anyways, ill ignore the bad and think of the good side. ohhh hell no. !And I scarce know which part may greater be,-_- What I keep of you, or you rob from me ? well, idk about you ppl think. i just wanna go for good and leave that school early.I wonder if they bore it long, Or did it jus begin? I cud not tell the date of mine, It feels so old a pain throughout my life. haish. what to do luh kans. sickening life perhaps. I wonder if it hurts to live?Or would i go on aching still ?The grieved are many, I am told that by above and be strong all the time . The reason deeper lies beneath miie. i no longer can stand the pain, so might as well i should live life the fullest ! (:

Wednesday, May 6, 2009

im so INNOCENT HERE . and Ive seen All the empty spaces yet to be filled. Ive heard All of the sounds tt will collect at the end of the world. And the silence that follows me wherever i go. but somehow, im happy in the back of my life. ohh well, i may get stress up with school + N levels but yet still enjoying my outside activites. and for last and will remind you this ehh gerl, AKU TAQ AKAN REGRET ! so yea. tanx for the pity face you gave to ppl. seriusly those , i dunt give a damn about it and you totally suck big time. ohh hooo ! said it all true and i really meant it you shitty shit!Fools and fine intelligence of yours are totally showing off. so what!? who are you to me now luh kans. i can say whatever i want too. as i dunt give a damn about it. S.T.M.F ! Time does not bring relief you all have lied .Who told me time would ease me of my pain? oh you. i dunt deserve your words. PISSED OUT YOU BUFFALO! ((:
Monday, May 4, 2009

Alright Alright. as i promised myself to tell you what ive done lately on my MIA weeks.okeh, listen up. haaaa !well, as some of my friends knew where ive been, so yea, ddnt want to mentioned it that much. cause somehow it really hurt mie much. so yea, ive been with my BB frens, i stayed there fr 3 days . kynda cool indeed. ahaa. so BIG YEA ! for that whole week, i wasnt in school as i gt problems overe something that almost lost my hopes !
first day over at *that* was superb ! everythang goes preety well (:


I'M BACK GUYS ! ahaa, back for updating. gosh ! i so missed these much !
all thankx to my friends that have been helping me all this while. ohh, im glad to have them by my side (: *sniff sniff* *tears fall*
ohh gosh, i am bored with my own lyfe ! somehow ill throw myself up with some work that i believe in all my heart, live for it, die with it and ill fynd my happiness that i had thought could never be yours. ahaa! i just gotta do my own stuffs and do in my own ways. i have to really focus with my upcoming life . which is my N LEVEL dammit ! how i wish we dunt have such things lyke these . ohh well, Life is full of choices, if you have the guts to go for it thn ill choose that fr my upcoming future. i wunt tell you what i have im mynd. soon ull find out. ehh wait, i need love ! god dammit ! wart i menat was, i need love from frens and family much ! idk whye ): im lack of it i guess, and I think itx nice when people fynd love, bcause I feel lyke everyone dserves it. and DO YKNOW WHAT ! kayy this is lame / I threw love at the wall and it bounced back and slapped me in the face . cause somehow my mum siad, nomatter how hard we fynd for it but theres always someone that will love us. ahaa. great isnt it (:
and to me I never loved another person the way I loved myself most and Saving love doesnt bring any interest in me yet as in relationships. and 3 frens of myne keep asking whye you keep rejecting that person, these person all person that i love most . and i told them *simple* i just need my own life and enjoy every teenage moment before gt under control. but for now, my frens having their great lyfe with whom they love with. ohh well, nvm. i just need to be strong . i dunt need all those yet (:
ohh THATS MIE ! (: