Saturday, February 27, 2010

Current Mood : Moody . Sad . Tension

Current Song : live like we're dying by Kris allen

FR : Bie, kat ane

DI: Whye?

FR : Just asking.haiz.

DI : ouhkays

FI : So where you ?

DI : At Home . you ?

FI : Bwh blok,alone.cant think straight . shit. you have no idea how bad i miss tt boy.he not replying or returning calls. not even my sister's. not even yours..shit. i tak boleh tido tau.an dgn you ok taq ?

DI : Bie, listen k. i may not be there to help but look, ive been guink alot lyke you do too. i wish i cud see thru your eyesso i wud knowwat you lyke to see. being helpless wunt help. justbcause sumthing good ends,doesnt mean sumting better wuntbegin...if you want love,then faithfully,practice living d principlesof love tt both of you have. work on yrself and noone esle. bie talking about an. eversince thn he nvr msg me nor calls. i pun same. both of us tk text langsungand im here missing hym badly. i cant sleep these past days too till now. i fucking woke up early inda morn teringat dier. how ?haish. i cant help myself just to keep myself quiet and stay home. ahish. i know he dunt even care.just look at tagged.he sent comment saying imy to anothere gerl after the day we fought. tt tyme. im very the hurtso much ):

FI : Haiz. i gt nothing else to say. these boys just dunt understnd us.

read our convo much ? these is how we felt for each other... the single ladies tt have been single more than a year plus, and trying so hard to fall in love. but in the end. we fail again. but look at us. we both of us supporting each other. soon and i hope everything gonna be ouhkay. i dunt mynd im the one who lost everything in love and fail but not to my bestfriend. i cant see tt happen to her.. i cant help myself seeing her down. i rather loose everything, but not a bestfreiend like her ): haish. yes. deep inside mie, i was very sad, angry,mad,haywire.idk what now. really hurt .... now i care for her most. Hard times are simply that---TIME---time passes and things do get better. So, just stick through it and one day you will look back on it and think 'Man, that was nothing worth.. look. dunt ever give even you said it doesnt worth. some parts are worthwhile. just so you think deeply.Everyday begins and ends with a thought, this I know... Everyone of your days begins and ends with a thought of me, this I hope......You must have hope in your heart before you can love.

Thursday, February 25, 2010

Current Mood : Bored . Break Down

Current Song : Playing with fire

Ha hahaha Ha hahaha Oohhwoooeee Eeeeeyeeaaahhh Na naniiiii

I don't slip or trip when she ask me where I've been (where you been) One big smile on my face ddarling it's just you and Me (you and me)

Now I'm on some Alfie behaviour I'll call you back later To many fish in the sea for me But when the lights come on and what's her Name is gone I realise where I'm supposed to beee

[Hook:]

I tried to believe every word of your sweet story But intuition keeps telling me Your making a fool outta meeee

[Chorus:]

Thoughts running wild through the night as I watch You sleep (she's getting closer) I can't help but check his text while he's passed out Next to me (it's only a matter of time) I'm on some CSI behaviour Who's gonna save ya You'll be the fool when the truth comes outttttt But when those lights come on and what's her face Is gone we're straight back to the same routine

[Hook:]

I tried to believe every word of your sweet story But intuition keeps telling me Your making a fool outta meeee

[Chorus:]

Cause I'm such a good liar Just admit it I never did it Yes you did No I didn't (ayy) I'm playing with fire Just admit it I never did it I know you did it No I didn't (yes you did) Cause I'm such a good liar Wwwoooooeeee I can't help myself I keep playing with fire Wwwoooooeeee Ha hahaha Such a good liar living life in discuise Can't keep up with these lies She do anything to try and catch me out But I never leave no signs In my heart we were ment to be Guys like me we be like 2 or 3 trust I can't help myself I love girls (what) I get a kick out of play with fire I get a kick out of play with fire Playing with fire Playing with fire She Ain't going no where you know why? [Chorus:]

Cause I'm such a good liar Just admit it I never did it Yes you did it No I didn't (ayy) I'm playing with fire Just admit it I never did it I know you did it No I didn't (yes you did) Cause I'm such a good liar Just admit it I never did it Yes you did it No I didn't (ooooo) I'm playing with fire Just admit it I never did it I know you did it No I didn't (yes you did) Wwwoooooeeee cause i'm such a good liar Wwwoooooeeee I can't help myself I keep playing with fire Wwwoooooeeee Ha hahaha Such a good liar Ha hahaha (nanana) Ha hahaha Ha hahaha Ha hahaha

Over and over again... replay and replay over and over again. rewind and rewind over and over again and again.... nice song for you and for me....too many fish in the sea for me (: . youre just playing with the fire boyyy.... such a good liar . you said you wnna text my bbg back to settle everything. where was it ? you left me hanging ..... look tt ive been in the CSI mood behaviour... but still i wsnt there to knmow more further. i aint wanna know the truth because all the things you wasnt wht it supposed to meant... and i know ure not the one. but how could you treating mie lyke this wen i still trust you nomatter how bad your friends said.... haish... look tt you dunt appreciate it much. you makin fun of it. our promise are still kept by me.... i aint wann say it here. you should know boy........It is better to be with no one than to be with the wrong one. my mynd said his the wrong guy on the other hand, my heart say his good enough to change to be better (: nomatter how bad you hate mie. just so yknow , as long as im hurt but still i nvr thut of you as a bad person nor hate you forever.. i really dislike it much ....Everybody makes mistakes. I also make them. But the biggest mistake I ever made was falling for you. haish... treating mie unfairly wasnt i expecting off..... im just being me to be honest to everyone at most.

ISH . SENANG2 GO WATCH RADIT & JANI OKEH.

ive been watching it since last tyme till now... thin and thick they strive for it...

Current Mood : Fucking Fresh . Kinda not in good mood due to morning bad dreams.

Current Song : Baby - Justin Bieber Ft ludacris

If some things are better left unsaid, then mayb they too are better left undone.Love can only be what you want it to be. im not trying to force myself by thn. it really a worse to worst ever thing to do or to open my heart to anyone. it was fucking difficult to love someone. but eventually not for now..letting yknow this, i dunt mynd getting hurt, rather thn suffered the pain....his with d ego, tt really hard to talk things out really gave mie a big hard fucking tyme okeh ! The more we fight waiting, the more waitin we will have to fight. lyke i told you, i cant suffer the pain but hurt all day long.Just when you think things can't get any worse, they do. I've learned tt lyfe is like hour glass sand. Sooner or later, everythin hits rock bottom, but all i have to do is b patient and wait fr sometin to turn everythin bck arnd. but seriusly, gonna take a looooong fucking tyme ... really ... Changes are always there in mylives, the wise ones accept change and live with it. i do see the wise just to move on. love give total painess and hurtness while fun give total happiness in me. yup, because i knew i cant live without having fun all the tyme. i cant be controlled, i cant be angry all the tyme wen we;re in love. no ... i wunt this tyme now.being a yr plus single was totally a great thing. BUT MINUS THE DATE IVE BEEN DATING WITH. hahaha . I TOLD YOU, A YEAR PLUS SINGLE WAS SOOOO INCREDIBLE and nvr in my lyfe lyke this..just so yknow,Ive learned tt tings change, pple change, and it doesnt mean i forgt the past or try to cover it up it simply means tt ive move on and treasure the memories. Letting go doesnt mean giving up, it means accepting that some things werent meant to be. like what im doing now. accept the fate of it (: yes, nommater how bad i suffered now, still the pain was surround mie. it was all fate (: . .The hardest part about moving forward is not looking back ! oh please dora. don't you ever think about the past ... ive always been thingking about this lately. idk whye. fucking hell ): nvm .... all FATE ! Advice is only asked to be given when iknow the true answer i juz dont want to believe it.I thought by staying, trying to change you would be worth it baby, but now I see that trying to change you, only changed me! so what for i stay wen im the one who suffered... a waste of tyme cause a guy lyke you is fucking hard to listen and lways with his EGO ! Everything in life is temporary. even wen you die together. they dunt get in the samee grave nor tortured together...If you wanna live, make everything happen, but if you wanna play, just dream about it boy. I believe the saddest thing in life, is caring so much for someone and then one day i look into their eyes and listen to em talk and realize tht they are gone. All i see in front of me is a stranger with just a known name.Ever wonder how your life would be right now if you had the power to go back and change even just one small thing? geeessss...Explore, dream, discover with em before getting in love deeply... learn from thm, know their secrets, know their everything in anyways they do....

Tomorrow isn't a promise, it's a chance .... yes or no ??

Monday, February 22, 2010

Current Mood : Twisted Mind . Confused .

Current Song : Naturally -Selena Gomez .

i had already text my bestfriend . azizul is his name . his my closest friend in my dance crew . he knew about mie more than everything even not a word saying hello to hym when meet up, he knew something not right. yup he came up to mie, said * are you alright,come share with me whats wrong. yknow ill be there whenevr you need help,ill always be your listening ear,cmon,so supp with it * . i was speecless, i cried and not saying aword at all. i was too hurt deeply inside. i whisper to myself, azizul ears came near to my mouth ... as i kept whispering * How is he doing there,is he find,i just need him by myside when im down *. azizul pulled mie up. putting his both palm on my shoulders . pulling mie up to look at his face....my eyes kept wonder around . and his there forcing mie to look at his eyes... i looked, a secs later my eyes wonder around... he said this

A: Love looks not with the eyes, but with the heart and soul! IM YOUR BESTFRIEND! I love whatever things youdo but please trust my heart and soul tt is why i want you to look deeply intoo my eyes. im 23 years old dora. im old. whye im still single till you step inside our new dance crew till now... why. cause of heart pain & i believe in bestfriend much thn having R/S with someone... dora listen..no matter what be strong to face everything. im still a dancer, you may see mie happily dance but deep bottom of my heart. i no longer could break it.. i dunt mind breaking my arms or leg. but please not my heart. dora...when youre down, im down too. wee're in same mood and life... im like you too. when im sad, i tend to make faces and being alone.guys noadays are hard to understand.. as surrounding changes day by day...

D: *sniff sniff* Hugs*Azizul,You hold my souls serenity in the palm of your hand, so treat it with care and gentleness plz. im scared. i just need everyting to secured in my heart. thankx fr the advive youve gave mie bestfriend..hug more tightly*If I could have one wish, it would just be this, I could take hym to my soul and show hym all the love there is. how truely i am for now.

A:While bein in love there are two requirements, heart breaking and healing. Healing takes time gerl...i know it will hurt you much

D:I can't seem to erase all the memories of hym. No matter how hard I try its someting I cant do. i badly in need and in love with hym. nvm bestfriend. im still strong to face this. just let mie breakdown alot of tyme as long as im finding a ways to be alright..

theres more he said to mie, he really give alot of advice. even the advice would hurt mie much. but still .i would always listen to hym. whye cant my gf be like hym..cry together,having hard and harsh advice but still meaning.. at least i can speak up. haish.. im just being tortured.I may not be the dream you want to come true, but Ill always be the person in love with you....):

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Current Mood : Sad . Bored . Pissed off . Random .

Current Song : Wanna be with you -Paula Deanda

Since You havent responded to my tex and havent heard from you since Friday Evening, i assume you are pretty upset with me. im sorry about tt. i was trying very hard to understand you. A heart breaking isn't always as loud as a bomb exploding.. Sometymes it can be as quiet as a feather falling.. And the most painful ting is, no one realy hears it, except me myself who have been heard and hurt... and i know its not just mie who going thru all this. same as the other party tt seems so hard to understand how i felt.It is u at grips wit tt too long hour never dim enough until sleep.You as though you cud be.The same except tht I shall perhaps never meet you . again or im not sure what it will be... i hope not .You pretend not to know I am watching you.Marvelously I am no longer sure you know.You idleness brings tears to my eyes badly.. i cant bare to see mie ,you my bbg and also my mum sad for this. i ddnt mean to let the tears roll out from their eyes. i wsnt sure. i was too sad when i was sitting over at starbucks with mum. drinking and sharing problems. im not like this before . even i had dates before.. but i wasnt badly inlove untill like this. i assume theres something unique and special in you tt really attract mie much.

im goin to smile and make u think Im hapy, Im goin to laugh, so you dont see me cry, Im goin to let you go in style, and even if it kills me ... but still Im goin to smile.

i wonder what it will be faking around? i aint wanna show or have any sympathy too. i know i can settle it with myself. but not till tt other party keep ignoring my msg. at least his there msg mie, im alright with it. but there he goes, ignoring mie lyke... hmm. idk what to say, and really hurt deep inside my crushed heart ):Ive changed so much. I wish you knew how much you changed me. I wonder if I changed you, if ur lyfe is different bcause of me. Bcause mines different. ohh geees ! you taught me so much, and from that Ive known. I guess thts what happens. KARMA .... and hated getting traumatised and phobia .. ):I nvr knew until tt moment how bad it could hurt to lose somethin i nvr really had.

mum said this to me: Where there is love, there is pain. strive and be brave to sort things out together so tt you dont loose the chance.

i pretty sure it will be a reality, but why must it be mie who always start the convo first when the other party keep quiet all the tyme ....Love is the hardest habit to break, and the most difficult to satisfy...a year plus being single was really not insecured much... shoudnt open my heart. but still HE makes my days lively.

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Current Mood : Bored . Unhappy .

Current Song : Crawl By Chris Brown

fucking bored . as i woke up at around 130pm, my mum just left , saw her closed the main gate, and wasnt in the mood to catch her up over at the gate just to say im awake. so yea, i took my tyme up here going out from my room door. entered washroom and washed my face and had muruku in my hands to chew... and again, fuck up, WISDOM TOOTH really killing mie much . i really wanted to to dentist today ! really, i dunt mynd with the operation, i dunt mynd with plucking out 3 tooth in A DAY ! and i dunt really mynd having stiches and re-open till the day it says soo. serisuly. it good to pluck it off rather thn having the pain all the tye. seeing my friends eat big burgers, crackers, soft drink really getting into my nerves ): awww, my tooth! im gonna kill you soon . and i couldnt sleep well these past days . fucking aching, fucking dizzy too ): urgh ! nvm . . . so actually, today post was fucking random . sorry for using alot of *fucking* word in it .. and oh yaaa, yesterday .... was jalan2 at Orchard Central. aku saw this tindik very the cantik.. i nak pierce it badly taw. fucking cantik and lawar ... and yea aku taq sabar lagy nyy ... conferm cost around $300 plus just for a tindik..

hehe. and yes,

my bbgerlfriend asked mie to checked for her over the internet whether she get to enter ITE or not . haaa. basically itx a yes, and i wasnt ready to tell her ... so i text her saying tt *go and check over at the letter box. and come over to my house...half hour later, she called mie, shouting

wawa: DEE!!! aku dapat masok * giggle rabak punyer* aku dapat masok...

Dora: Hahaha .. see, i just wanna surprise you, just to look for yourself you enter ke tidak.see. im happy for you.... kan da agak punyer. this was all a surprise

Wawa: Giggle nonstop* aku dapat masok !!! kene py interview!!.. giggle*

Dora: klah2, come over my house and check it out ok..

Wawa: giggle* okok .. bye ...

aww, how cute my bestfriend nyy .... geees, my prayers really worth for her (:

im glad tt we prayed hard and banyak bersabar (: alhamdulilah. congrats . now waiting for interview. pray hard again okeh (: ... nomatter what, im your bestfriend will always be there for you(: please dont ever give up.. allah akan slalu beri kan kiter banyak chance jika anda bnyak berdoa dan jugak banyak bersabar (: .. amin (: im happy for you luh WAWA KU !!!!!!!

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Photos upload ! yes . at last . been trying so hard to upload.. fucking slow yknow ! alryte happy for now. im Home safely indeed (: and yes.... my 4 days in KL was fucking awesome . indeed. but MINUS MY pain in the ass WISDOM TOOTH !! UHHH ! fucking hell pain all. througout the days spent day, i couldnt eat well due to tooth aching ): itx ok .

so yes, Friday .... Fucking woke up early.. ehh no., i wsnt asleep at all. getting ready and off from home at 3am ! (: yup, to avoid JAMS ! . so yea, reach melaka for breakfast and off again to KL . check in at around 9am . yes . 9am we reached KL . fucking long. back aching ! after settling down.nice one. shared bed with mum. haaa. and at around 12pm. had our lunch neardy our hotel. hour later back to our cars and proceed to Petronas towers. fuck shit . big huge enormous snakes found there. fucking hell. haha. ini kalau dier makan aku. kenyang untuk setahun ! hahaha LOL... kay shsss.. walk around. ddnt took alot of pictures cause was having too much fun walk here and there... and lets proceed. shopping spree... again . and went bak to hotel fucking early cause too tires. seriusly .NOT FORGETTING ! Sat night club @ La Queen for club kids. Blue Boys at bukit bintang is good if you like non-chinese. haha . NOT REALLY FINDING MUCH OF HIGH-END GUYS THERE . theres afew only (:

Sunday, i woke up first at around 5am..why ? haha. cause i ook my tyme berendam di dalam tub . till 6am thn my mum turn to bath-ed. haha . after all done . we head down for breakfast at hotel around 830-9am like tt ? hmm. had yummy big eggs,nice breakfast . but still tooth ache . take tyme to chew): . sobx! thn thn. the part we cant wait most ! GENTING HIGHLAND ! hahah . yea... so very very the gairah yknow ! hahah . EGGXITING GYTU LORH ! hhaha. arrive at the bottom of genting, we off our aircon and slide down our krete tingkap? haha. . SEJUK BANGET . seriusly. double our car aircons! CONS BETOL pffft ! haaa. kecohrable. WAHH YEAH OOO here and there. haha .out from car. WOO. COLDNESS RABAK PUNYER. MOREOVER IM WEARING SHORTS. HAHAHA . coolness men... enterd theme park. play around. nothing much diff/change there.. SPACE SHOT WAS D AWESOME ONE INDEED. its like you jumping from high stories!! i cant even felt the sit wen it came ZOOOM-ED down. fucking. hell. i was shivering ! really. tt was my first tyme. chey. dora brany taw !!! hahah . bluek... bla bla bla.... was at genting from 1030AM till 530PM. ahaaa. back to hotel. put stuffs, and off to these fucking happening place called bukit bintang ! hahahah. fucking hell. and also pavilion. OMG COACH POPPY, LV,CHANEL... those fucking branded real one ok. no fake on really catch my eyeballs much on em. hahah . fucking eyeball make mie stare long .. at last. i gt my self D&G WALLET AND LV BEG . ESCADA & CHANEL 5 PERFUME !!(: haaa. fuck helll men... MY HANDS SO ICTH LUH. TTS WHYE.. haha wLKED TILL 12AM. back to haotel sleep tight people ! and yes. luper ku mau bilang. for the past 2 days, late night fireworks was put up . idk what event but seriusly from our hotel window we can see near and fucking nice ! i was the first who shout *ehh bunga api!!! bangun2 tengok luar tingkap cepat !!!!*wen all my family were asleep. hello msia ppl. taq tawu tido ker ?? they put up tt firewerks at around 12am and 3am. mangkok kan ! haha. but nice one !! back to sleep... heee.

mOnday ... awww. shopping spree.... as usual.... shop shop shop. til i frgt fr my friends items. haa. it was a last min one indeed ! really. sorry .... but still i have small souveniers ... haaaa !and not forgetting. we went for tahi mssg .. haha. i wasnt in teh picture cause i was doing the whole body inside. told you! my body fucking aching due to tooth ache really drive mie nuts.. fucking pain till my back and nec and also tempel ache ! arrghh ):

home sweet home. tuesday and gees. now just reached from sakura. haha. sempat ehh kiter py makan kat sakura , town (: woohoooo.now, im missing my bby gerl fareena... aku da jumpe si wawa tady. yaha. dpt ku lepas kan rindu kat dier (:...now the bishan boys ... fuck.. wait wait. gonna hug tightly ! !hahah

Friday, February 12, 2010

my weeks with family, cousins and friends was totally a splendid one ! indeed people...! awesome weeks i had with em. fucking hell.... photoshoots, fort canning,pair ris,birdpark, snow city, science centre, exploring, lepak-ing,shopiing,clarke quay,town,vivo,get drunk, get haywire,get into trouble,falling in love was fuckingly great this week. haha. eventho had bad mood past weeks with this STILL A GIRL THINGKING.so not into mie. seriusly. i dunt give a damn even. ohh whatever. all i care for now is, family, cousins and frends. gees. totally awesome. i really spent my days with em correctly. whye correctly ? well, basically, ive done a great timetable . wich was,half of the day wit fam and cousins half of the day with frends... geees.

cant say much.. had so much fun too over at bishan with the boys and my bbgirl fareena... (and FYI, shes my bestfriend)ive known her long thn you ok ! pffft. jgn sal boley ckp(wahh, da pamdai carik kwn baru nmpk) haha. hello. sorry skit ! kayy back to the topik. so yea.. AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME WEEKS !!!! (: and now, in awhile ! soon, in hours time. in minutes time.soon enough. . awhile more.. getiing ready. almost ready. going out in awhile. hahah. okk shuts. stop the crap..... going to KL FOR 5 DAYS ! yea yea aku pey luh taq sabar nak shopping barang2 aku. and not forgetting all my boys and fareena especially !hahah. OMG OMG ! cant wait luh people. and conferm2 cant wait to singgah HARD ROCK CAFE. my parents love to go there late night. ape lagy, aku pun join luh kans. yeeehaaa ! taq sabar luh kan. OMG AGAAIN. ehh taq . HAHA. OK SHUTS. ANYWAYS, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR, AND HAPPY VALENTINES DAY TO COUPLES OUT THERE. too bad i cant celeb . haha. alot i reject due to my Kl trip. nyahahah.. blueks. and to my fareena. party hard liaoooozzz.. tkmo notty2 taw bby gerl, alaa, nangis je lah bie, taqmo terjun luh. hahah.. ade2 jek tau. kiter sesame nangis kay. i will kal you before reaching checkpoint. so ya, dpt talk2. lepas kan rindu dlm kreta hahah ! da lah taq pernah2 kite taq meet dlm 5 hary tuu. geees. okeh shuts. gtg now. packing up soon.busy for now.hmmmmph!

aku miss

FAREENA, SHARMAINE,WAWA,

KHAI,AL-HAFIZ,RAIHAN,BARATH,SUFIYAN,FARHAN,WAN,IQBAL,AZMAN,PUPU,

FIEZA O,HAKIM,HANNAN,RASUL,SHAH,FAIZAL...

haha . lol. as if im going forever like tt uhs. haha. ish ish ! melampau dora. hahhaahaha !ok shuts.

I MISS SINGAPORE AND MY BANTAL BUSHUK EYOORE AND BARNEY ! HAHAHAH

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