Saturday, March 27, 2010

home . Dover . marina bay mrt . pupu . otang . mai . busstop . shuttle bus . marina barrage . smoke . cam whore . fountain . camwhore . sit . sick . headache . keep quiet . fatihah . hugs . shop . junk food . drinks . potato chips . drinks . fareena . ifah . hany . elevator . nice spot . hot . sit . bubbles . eat . camwhore . quiet again . headache . eat . camwhore . sit . toilet . smoke . kite flying taq menjady . sit . bored . sleepy . sick again . idk which to follow . end up . split with friends . chill at cck . met this rapper . awhile . chill . home sweet home .. thats all.

and lastly . ANUGERAH SKRING WAS AWESOME. I MET ALOT OF FRIENDS . NEW AND OLD FRIENDS TOO (: haaa . exchange more thn 10 num lyke ohh wow ! ahahaha . anyways, all the best to mie and for those yang dpt masok kay ! hahah . da kay . i malas nak write panjang2 . nigghts!!! YAWNNNNNNNNNNNNN*

Monday, March 22, 2010

Why am I afraid to lose you when ure not even mine...Why ?It hurts to see the one i love happy with someone else. Really hurt much . all i can do is to keep quiet till the day tt will and surely wen wrong . my Besties will know this.... kept the grudges much in mie. ohh whye hurt ? basically.........long story yall aint a need to know....we've been seeing each other almost everyday ... have fun together .. stay together . stay close.. such and such ... but in the end. caught red handed ... he doesnt know still .. i wanna let hym know about it. but im scared.. cause we're just Friends still... but the inner feeling i had was so HUGE .... so does he but a lil .. missing each other,kiss calls . will always be the last text of the day wen we're going to sleep and the morning real kiss i gave you after you sent mie home just now. when i said *good bye,take care* i just turn around and walk, he stopped mie and said*taqde kiss*...i gave hym one...without saying anything , i just walked off. it was not sincere one indeed, but i have to make faces by thn . im sorry . tt wasnt real enough.If the truth was told instead of a lie, then the pain would go away sooner and not hurt as much. but how should i start this.i really have to keep this.It really hurts when i expected so much morefrom the person i once loved so much. tt is why im keeping it to myself all this while.. cause im scared to FALL IN LOVE like the previous post i update. bbg said he look like a gdboy boy ... yes indeed he was, just from the outside.. what about the inside ? tt , hard to believe...It's lyke my mind knows whats ryte but my heart is being retarded and still cares. arrrgh ! & lastly . yes i can trust hym, cause. everyday he work. 10am to 8pm ... reached home, sleep. and at around 12am-2am he will go online chat with mie or most prolly meet mie up.. but what about the msges ? Facebook ?too much thinking and i know i shouldnt have too ! uhh pfffft !. and im so sorry for texting you one word one word ... all i can say is nothing wrong and im alryte .... and there he goes... keeping quiet ):

more photos to come . be patience ppl ! fucking lack and itx like 200 plus . soon to upload all in facebook ... SOON . and IF i have the tyme . sorry ! -_-
my 3 days 2 nights chalet with my lovely guys was FUNKY AWESOME ! sape taq pegy rugi.. .... hahah .. asked my bbg fareena along to these HOUSE SUPERSTAR & FASHION PARTY. (limited ppl and party ppl invited)but in the end , all doesnt dress up tt much. haha . weird. itx okeh. as long we're having FUN ! 3 days straight drinking like org gyla... haha . DOUBLE YAYNESS AND FUN ! (: this is what we call private party in the CHALET yaw ! (: OVERALL I RATED IT SUPERB ! TRIPLE THE AWESOME !. HAHA .
Tuesday, March 9, 2010

1st-Cause FB wall pic ku dpt Dlete.(selame ny aku taq tawu pakai FB) haha . okeh diam..

2nd - chat with Fareena. Asraf. Anoh. Amir.Taufik and Otang make mie laugh away . (SOME) Iswat very the notty! nnty dier... ku munch munch aru tawu ! notty boy ! and to otang. be strong. i know you can.. im always here if you need help..talkk things out kay. rmbr my advice.. rindu kau !

3rd - Starbucks . Carls & Jr . Swensens Ice Cream . MC Cafe . Famous Amos da ku serbu Semlm . haha .. total spent $40 plus per day . mangkok ! an im craving for chilli beef cheese fries again!

4th - lepak with wawa, adik nya dan juga abang sedara nya... haha ! and not forgetting radin and his bikers friend after my 2 frends went home.. radin sai* whye you nmpk cengkung muker,kurus nmpk skg, uh gare2 masok hospital taq makan kan* .. haha. dora happy sgt ader org ckp da kurus.. alaa skit jek.! HAHA kembang aku haha .. radn very the small and i love seeing hym kene beaten. ahha !..

cute you !...

Lastly - i lost 3kg in 2 days after discharge .. and today, recently i check i lost another 2 kg .. fucking weird (still no appetite to eat) but for yesterday, happily eating non stop thn today, nak makan punyer luh susah.. nak rase muntah aje.. but still happy with my life now.. taq makan, taq pasal. ku kebuluh pun taq pasal.... hahaha ... DORA TAQNAQ MAKAN !!! nak kurus. im fat giler babi punyer luh okeh !!!!!!! .... 5 kg lost in less thn 2weeks .. too mie itx fucking miracle sebab aku slalu makan slalu naek. taq pernah trun. nyahahahah !.. prangai budak gems ( tts what my bbg always say ) hah ..

SORRY FOR THE VERY THE RANDOM POST ! (:

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Monday, March 1, 2010

i ddnt knew the pain in my head getting more and more helpless.. i ddnt knew the pain was getting worse to worst ! ): i knew these would happen in no tyme . i attended 3 chalets yesterday . 2 of my aunts and lastly friends.... i was tonning my nights away ovr at bbg fareena chalet. celebratin her dad's bday . it was a luck to came over if not i wouldnt attend.. i know and always will make tyme fr my bestfriend occassion nomatter how hurt and pain i have ryte now.. i kept still. i kept myself quiet . i used fake happiness for em. i make myself happy. eventually, seeing his face too makes mie more happier but minus the way he reacts towards mie really cant accept it. i thut tings wud be better if we talk as usual.. friends wud also be safe and sound... but not at all. not a single word from hym. it was just a tiger beer passed to hym and tts all. haish... i cabbed home.. reached early in the morn. which is just now... i bed-ed in . tried to sleep. but i couldnt. kept twisting all abt.. it was 10 am showned at my watched. whye cant i just sleep. fareena call mie up said tt she's still over at the chalet. i hold on to my tears. thut of letting her know. itx okeh. let her enjoy with khai and an... im happy. tears roll down when i said" bie, kirim salam an okeh" she said OK....i put down the phone. . tried to sleep again. haish. tyme passed by so fast as i look at the watch again, 2pm. these when it happen...i vomit everything out. i texted my other childhood bestfriend.. wawa. i texted her to call my mom, as i text my mum shes not replying yet. i knew shes on the road. too helpless to dial my mum num. mum called minutes later, worried sounded....i cried. i couldnt stand the pain much . mum hurried home. dad too ... she opened my room door. i was shivering and crying, helplessly on bed not moving about, i kept so fucking still. all i can do was give a hard punched on my head thn cry . dad was rubbing my head. while mum took zam-zam water (holy) she asked mie to drink so i took a sip. straight away, went to clinic. while walking i fainted.. these, i knw , i cant help myself. clinic enough ? nahhh.... blur vision start...weak hands..weak legs. not able to stand in proper. these i know, i couldnt help much and fight the sickeness back. i cry and cry ... they take mie home. waited for 4 hours as the doc say, still not fynd. to hospital they say.... while on my way. dad nags...A lot of people in my life are getting sick due to hot weather or potentially going to get sick from tobacco. tu lah kau, isap rokok bnyk sangat... do you drink yesterday ? he asked mie these... i told hym, enjoy , mmg i have limits, but ayah, dina taq minom pun semalam. thut of it, but taq pun, taq manis depan parents yang ramai kans...my head really berat luh ayah, please dunt talk about this... mummy say, i assume tt you are stress now about the incident ryte ? i laid my head over at mum shoulder... i cried... haish. itx been 5 hours plus now, still waiting for results. sitting inside these useless room mke mie feel so uneasy, moreoevr periods ! haish.. i tynk these or *its* thing following mie or what ? haish.....I'm sick to bloody death of bastards too ...Any time I got in emotional turmoil, I felt sick all the time, like at any minute I would die. Migrain, heavy migrains plus depressions sickness...and fuck hell no, NO to food and drink for 24 hours ): ... im starving now ):

28 Feb 2010 . . . .