Monday, March 1, 2010

Current Mood : Scary . sad . Helpless . Sick .

Playing Nintendo doesnt work my strength):

Current song : Semua Tentang Kita -Peterpan

i ddnt knew the pain in my head getting more and more helpless.. i ddnt knew the pain was getting worse to worst ! ): i knew these would happen in no tyme . i attended 3 chalets yesterday . 2 of my aunts and lastly friends.... i was tonning my nights away ovr at bbg fareena chalet. celebratin her dad's bday . it was a luck to came over if not i wouldnt attend.. i know and always will make tyme fr my bestfriend occassion nomatter how hurt and pain i have ryte now.. i kept still. i kept myself quiet . i used fake happiness for em. i make myself happy. eventually, seeing his face too makes mie more happier but minus the way he reacts towards mie really cant accept it. i thut tings wud be better if we talk as usual.. friends wud also be safe and sound... but not at all. not a single word from hym. it was just a tiger beer passed to hym and tts all. haish... i cabbed home.. reached early in the morn. which is just now... i bed-ed in . tried to sleep. but i couldnt. kept twisting all abt.. it was 10 am showned at my watched. whye cant i just sleep. fareena call mie up said tt she's still over at the chalet. i hold on to my tears. thut of letting her know. itx okeh. let her enjoy with khai and an... im happy. tears roll down when i said" bie, kirim salam an okeh" she said OK....i put down the phone. . tried to sleep again. haish. tyme passed by so fast as i look at the watch again, 2pm. these when it happen...i vomit everything out. i texted my other childhood bestfriend.. wawa. i texted her to call my mom, as i text my mum shes not replying yet. i knew shes on the road. too helpless to dial my mum num. mum called minutes later, worried sounded....i cried. i couldnt stand the pain much . mum hurried home. dad too ... she opened my room door. i was shivering and crying, helplessly on bed not moving about, i kept so fucking still. all i can do was give a hard punched on my head thn cry . dad was rubbing my head. while mum took zam-zam water (holy) she asked mie to drink so i took a sip. straight away, went to clinic. while walking i fainted.. these, i knw , i cant help myself. clinic enough ? nahhh.... blur vision start...weak hands..weak legs. not able to stand in proper. these i know, i couldnt help much and fight the sickeness back. i cry and cry ... they take mie home. waited for 4 hours as the doc say, still not fynd. to hospital they say.... while on my way. dad nags...A lot of people in my life are getting sick due to hot weather or potentially going to get sick from tobacco. tu lah kau, isap rokok bnyk sangat... do you drink yesterday ? he asked mie these... i told hym, enjoy , mmg i have limits, but ayah, dina taq minom pun semalam. thut of it, but taq pun, taq manis depan parents yang ramai kans...my head really berat luh ayah, please dunt talk about this... mummy say, i assume tt you are stress now about the incident ryte ? i laid my head over at mum shoulder... i cried... haish. itx been 5 hours plus now, still waiting for results. sitting inside these useless room mke mie feel so uneasy, moreoevr periods ! haish.. i tynk these or *its* thing following mie or what ? haish.....I'm sick to bloody death of bastards too ...Any time I got in emotional turmoil, I felt sick all the time, like at any minute I would die. Migrain, heavy migrains plus depressions sickness...and fuck hell no, NO to food and drink for 24 hours ): ... im starving now ):

28 Feb 2010 . . . .

The Girl Next Door

Dinaelrina Isadora
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